June 27th, 2005
i’m just a teenage dirtbag baby!!
mood: crazy music: dawson’s fucking creek bitches!!!
so here i am monday morning. no coffee no beer. just dawsons creek and i . i had the best weekend. i saw dominica on friday in nyc for the first time on gosh 5 years! i really missed her alot. she reminded me of how much fun we use to have and why we became friends like the summer before hs. haha that’s a long time ago ! dammm! i also saw another old friend that night. we had so much fun. i was just proud of my self for breaking out my shell and really living it up and doing the stuff that i’ve have been wanting to do lately. here i was drinking and eating cheap vegan food in the east village and thinking i got here alone… i didn’t need someone to hold my hand or talk to on NJT . i got in the car, got on a train and took myself to nyc like i was going for coffee at the end of it all. i somehow took my drunk ass 2 subway trains back to penn station all alone and got my self home with out a panic or worry or fear! i finally did something i always wanted to by myself. i’m sorry if this sounds dumb but i always have someone by my side where ever i go. mostly dave. not that i’m complaining. but i never just do something like that. i am always the one who always had to have someone with me wherever i go, i am finally becoming an indepent person, which is nice. my life doesn’t depend on someone elses want & needs and being a fucking sidekick. I’m really trying. dave was actually impressed and even a lil sad and i didn’t ask him to come. i just really didn’t even think about him at all. i guess i should get use to being apart.. september starts our new lives..
