Rubbish, Rantings & Other Nonsense. -

home again!

mood: sleepy!!!! so i’m sitting alone in my room in my apartment and it’s kinda lonely w/ out the usual chaos! i got here a little after 5 today and it’s strange. my fridge is empty and there is no ice i had to pluge the fucker back in. i was the last one to leave and now i’m the 1st one back! i got subway for dinner and ate it alone while watching friends! haha i’m so dull. i think i left my pj’s at dave ‘s apartment! i wish he wasn’t so far away! my piece of shit car is just about done.. the trani is so shot even w/ my solution of driving w/ the overdrive off it’s starting to go! i need to save money to get a new whip! i’m thinkng a impreza wagon or a gti! but i really want an audi the new a8 actually ! hahahaha i’ll never get that car!!! i had such a good week w/ dave in burlington. last night i realized that it would be awsome if i was there too! i made some great new friends there and i’d love to be there! but i’m home in lyndonville and my fucking awsome freinds will all be here in a few days and we’ll be back in out crazy routine! i am so lucky to have them i love them all! i just wish that i never had to miss people! i miss nj already i barely got to be there and i didn’t see everyone i wanted to. dave and i were bitter when we left because his luggage was still lost but sure enough as soon as we get to vermont they found it! and he was a happy boy again! i guess it’s just an us thing to go throught this shit! anyway i’m tired i’m going to be now i’ll post some new picts tomorrow!

nighty night <3

the world has gone fucking mad!!!!!!!!!

ok i need to vent! and i hope certain people read this because i’m pissed ! in defense to my best freind in the whole world who i’d die for i have this to say! it’s fucked up that some people are fueling shit that is unnessary and still talking about her because they are sooooooooooo not over it! it’s fucked up that thouse in question so involve in it that they are friends now when in fact they were enemies. we’ll say that because it was true! and even thought we’re friendly you will not talk shit while i’m alive ! p.s u hated her because he stole her from you! deal w/ it it was him not her ! you were a hs boyfreind get over it! she stuck up for you when everyone else shit on you!!!!! oh and you think that they are your friends now ? hahaha they still i’m sure make fun of you! oh yeah and asshole who still is not over it! stop trying to get people on your side it’s not working !!! you are lame and that’s why you went back to that slut stephanie! oh and she is the whole county knows that!!! try to rub you lovey dovey shit all over the place when it’s obivious you’re not over it and you never will be !!! oh and nice try ! we’re not freinds after what you did to my freinds so deal w/ it ! if you didn’t care you wouldn’t bother trying to make up shit !! you’re lame and immature! please go kill yourself! i love you my dear and i just had to vent because i’t’s redicilous already!!!

i miss home a lil’ already

so i’m sittining here alone in my dorm room even thought it is lovely and comfy i’m fucking bored already! my roomies don’t get back till sunday and i’m toooo lazy to go to burke to see sammy tonight. well at least i have cable tv and i’m watching jerry miguire why i don’t know but i really was watching to pass the time till something good was on but i for got to change it and now all the good stuff is over ! fuck!!!!! oh well back to veggin out alone!
p.s i miss david and my highlight of this place today was that tom and drew called to say hi from florida!

popularity contest i think so!!!!!!!!!

Current mood:  angry

i would just like to bring up the fact i am done w/ anyone who is a fairweather friend. i’m am not naming names but if you think that it’s you then it most likely is !  for those of you who are like that i have no time for you in my life and you should  just find someone else to use for that shit!!

Currently listening:
Cosmopolitan Bloodless
By Glassjaw
Release date: 09 December, 2002

home…
Current mood:  anxious

i’m home for thanksgiving.. well at dave’s home i’ll be here till sunday.. there’s pictures to come of last nght before break and of our crazy week in nj . <3

at the end of the world or the last thing i see..
Current mood:  loved

right now i basically feel like my life is perfect. i haven’t actually been this happy in a really long time.. this weekend was great.. dave and i has a blast w/ my friends. perhapps it was the drive to burlington today. we saw snow. it made something in us come alive .. dave stoped the car and i jumped out. i wanted to touch it and hold it in my hands. dave went running through it. we threw a few snowballs at eachother then jumped back in the car. i love winter. dave and i fell in love in the winter. after a huge storm we got like 15 inches or something like that. we went to ride on a huge hill and we ended up laying in the snow and staring at the stars and talking. it was freezing but we didn’t even feel it. i felt that way, today when we were in the car it felt like… there aren’t words to capture that.. “everyday love him just a little bit more and he loves me the same” -cheesynes

and it rains for hours and the phone is off it’s hook….
Current mood: blank

when did we get so lost? the pain we all go through. my heart breaks like glass. and i’m left here alone. i struggle through this one last time, can we make it through? i not wouln’t be ignored anymore, if so you’re the fool. i’m the one who loves you. i’m the one who isn’t using you. you pretend it’s no big deal, nothing is wrong to you. the truth is so real it’s it’s standing right in front of you. don’t let your heart turn against you. i am you’re everything and you’ve always been mine..

and i’m nothing more than a line in your book….

Current mood:  bouncy

ok so this week was an emotional rollercoaster .. life in general, love , school ect… but throught it all were my best friends who just want to see me happy… vt would be hell on earth with out them… you know who you are.. so doublewide thursday was out of control this week seriously too much fun… there picts on someone’s webshots if you were there then you know who’s they are.. it’s raining like whoa!!! i hate it i just want snow… i wana get my abs back in check. i wana ride… i’m in burlington w/ dave right now. i missed him a lot. we need this time together like whoa squared… also i’m going to salen in 2 weeks w/ my best buddies fron the great state of new jersey!!!! it’s going to be halloween off the hook this year … also if anyone knows me and the ladies, then our halloween party is still on call us for details.. bonsey + loulou howell 4 ever !!!! you wish you were socialites like us…  lol

this is my week ok…
Current mood: awake

so it’s now friday.. let’s recap the week so far … monday - working on a post-modernism paper that is t-minus 2 hours from deadline and  sammy comes over w/ worlds largerst bottle of jeager. this results in me doing 10 shots & not finishing my paper getting sick while all my friends watch and laugh.. the birth of blackout mondays. tuesday- i quit smoking.. nip tuck w/ dan <3 make stir fry veggie sandwiches for us and the gang.. wed-harry’s class is canceled wich inturn leads to a expedition on the pirate ship w/ drew, sammy, jared, dan p, ayla, trick ass baller, bill and a few others. too much fun..then off to the packer w/ jared. we meet up w. the ladies dance our asses off… thurs- i am sick i stay in bed all day.. i can’t swallow or really move.. dave martin keep me company via aim basically all day. drew come to cheer me up 4 a bit then comes back w/ jared and bill they bring me soup, tea and cough drops. dave martin also bring me ricola’s.. i love my friends.. drew, jared and i watch donnie darko cause it’s my favorite and dan comes by to say hi since i’m sick.. jared and drew are such good friends i’m so lucky to have them.. jared is the best roomie he took good care of me and made sure i was ok.. well thats it so far i have a few pict post to put up very soon i promise.. i love you guys my best friends - dave/jared/drew

Current mood:  exhausted

lsc had a black out on thusday canceling all classes fucking up my internet. and making us all a bunch of grumpy fucks. the events that followed were insane.. however it’s sunday am i’m in burlington w/ my husband and i really don’t feel like typing but i will say this i  am a pirate…